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THE CRIPPLED HEART 1 SAMUEL 19:8-21:15 Series: David: Heart Matters - Part Four Pastor Stephen Muncherian January 23, 2011 |
This
morning we are going on with our look at David and
heart matters. David
- as a person - is epic. If
he was on YouTube he’d be viral.
And yet, David struggled with life like we
struggle with life. Through
all of what David went through God was shaping David’s
heart - molding him - teaching David how to live life
with God on the heart level. What
we’ve been looking at as we’ve been looking at David
has been what it means for us to live life at the
heart level with God - at the core of who we are to
have a heart after God’s own heart. Last
Sunday we looked at what is probably the most famous
battle in the Old Testament. Probably
one of the most famous battles in all of history. A battle that wasn’t fought
between armies but between two people - David and
Goliath. A battle of good
verses evil. The little
shepherd boy verses the big bad giant.
The latest in modern warfare verses a kid with
a 5 rocks and a sling. Ultimately
a stunning victory. A
battle in which David experienced victory because of
God. The battle is who’s? The Lord’s. That’s
where we left David last Sunday.
David takes Goliath’s armor and keeps it as a
souvenir - a memorial to God’s victory.
David cuts off Goliath’s head and heads off to
Jerusalem - pun intended - for what becomes a huge
victory parade. David
is on the top of his game. Its
like winning American Idol and getting voted on to the
island all at the same time. Steve
Jobs saying, “You can have my
shares of Apple.” The
people are saying that Saul has slain his thousands
but David his ten thousands. Whatever
Saul is - David is greater. Wherever
David goes - whatever he does - he prospers. God just keeps pouring on
the blessings. For
killing Goliath Saul gives David great riches. He gives David his daughter
Michal as a wife. Jonathan
- Saul’s son - takes David under his wing - kind of
like a younger brother. Looks
out for him - protects him - loves on him. David’s part of the royal
family. Along
with all that David is the anointed king in waiting. At some point God is going
to hand him the whole kingdom. We
need to hold onto that picture. David
is living obedient to God. He
is the model of humility, dependability, integrity - a
man after God’s own heart - that God has blessed and
is blessing. In a very
short span of time David goes from being the young
teenage shepherd boy - that even his own family didn’t
think much of - to being the hero of the nation - the
people’s champion. David
has everything going his way. And
that’s when the wheels fall off the chariot. Please join me at 1 Samuel
19:8. Anyone
here every have to use crutches?
What’s the purpose of a crutch?
To lean on for support - stability - take the
pressure off - the weight off something that’s broken
or sprained. A crutch is
something we lean for support. What
we’re going to look at this morning is God - while
David has everything going his way - God taking the
crutches out from under David. There
are five of these. The
first comes in 1 Samuel 19 - starting at verse 8. That’s The Crutch of a
Position. Let’s say
that together, “The crutch of a
position.” 1 Samuel 19:8:
When there was war
again, David went out and fought with the Philistines
and defeated them with great slaughter, so that they
fled before him. David
is an officer in Saul’s army - commanding men into
battle. In that role
David goes out - fights against the Philistines - and
once again is victorious. David’s
got an enviable position in the king’s court. Job security.
A bright future. Perks. Bonuses.
A good retirement plan. Verse
9: Now there was an evil spirit from the
Lord on Saul as he was sitting in his house with his
spear in his hand, and David was playing the harp with
his hand. Saul tried to
pin David to the wall with the spear, but he slipped
away out of Saul’s presence, so that he stuck the
spear into the wall. And
David fled and escaped that night. Picture
that scene in your mind. Maybe
that’s a stretch unless you’ve had someone threaten
your life with a spear. Saul
was tormented by this evil spirit and he’s become
raving mad. David had
been chosen to come and play the harp - which calmed
Saul down. But, it seems
like - as time was passing - and David was getting
more successful - and Saul was all about… Saul - and
not doing well with the comparisons with David - that
there was a huge pressure building here. So
here’s David - fresh back from the battle - doing what
he can to sooth Saul - when all of a sudden this spear
comes flying past his head and sticks in the wall. How do you respond to that? David’s a battle hardened
warrior. He
could
have easily taken Saul out. But
Saul’s
the king. So David flees
- escapes into the night - a means of survival while
protecting Saul. What
David leaves behind is his position.
The proven commander - the faithful heroic
warrior - harp player for the king - in the flash of
spear flying into the wall - its all gone. Never again will David have
that position of service with Saul.
The
second crutch God removes is The Crutch of a Wife.
Let’s say that together, “The crutch of a wife.” The
prize for killing Goliath included who?
Saul’s daughter Michal. David
gets the princess and they live happily ever after. A loving happy couple. Not really. We
need some background here. Back
in 1 Samuel 18 at verse 21 we read when Michal and
David were going to get married Saul thought it was a
good idea. Verse 21: And Saul thought, “I will give her to him
that she may become a snare to him, and that the hand
of the Philistines may be against him.” Saul
is uses his daughter as a pawn - because Saul is
about… Saul and Saul is jealous of David - who’s
upstaged him. Saul uses
his daughter as a way to get to David.
Saul asks David for a dowry.
Asks David to go out and kill 100 Philistines. Saul - thinking that David
is going to get killed in the process.
But David - blessed by God - David comes
through - kills the Philistines.
And Saul - now really goes off the rails -
becomes more afraid of David - more desirous of
killing him. Which
leads to the spear flying through the air and David
escaping into the night. Which
is where we pick this up in 1 Samuel 19 - verse 11: Then Saul sent messengers to David’s
house to watch him, in order to put him to death in
the morning. But, Michal,
David’s wife, told him, saying, “If you do not save
your life tonight, tomorrow you will be put to death.” So Michal let David down
through a window, and he went out and fled and
escaped. In
verse 17 Saul confronts Michal, “Why have you betrayed me like this. Why did you let my enemy
escape?” Michal’s
response, “I had to. He threatened to kill me.”
What goes around… comes around.
Like father like daughter.
Michal is protecting herself at the expense of
her husband. Michal’s
answer works against David. It
only angers Saul more. Only
deepens his resolve to kill David.
Point being that David’s wife deliberately
sends David away. Deliberately
protects her life at her husband’s expense. Reading down through history
- after all this goes down - David and Michal never
again live in harmony. So,
God removes another crutch - the wife is history. Crutch
number three is The Crutch of a Mentor.
Let’s say that together, “The crutch of a good mentor.” David’s
on the run. 1 Samuel
19:18: Now David fled and escaped and came to
Samuel at Ramah, and told him all that Saul had done
to him. And he and Samuel
went and stayed in Naioth. Where
does David run? To
Samuel. The man who
anointed him with oil. Samuel
is in tight with God. Samuel
anointed David as the next king.
Samuel is the one guy who should be able to
make some kind of sense out of this whole thing. Ramah
- was where Samuel was from - his hometown base of
operations. Ramah was
about 10 miles north of Jerusalem.
David finds Samuel in Ramah.
Samuel says, “Let’s go to Naioth.” Naoith is about 5 miles
farther north than that. I
Googled Naioth - there’s a Chilean Death/Fusion Band
name Naioth that has a Facebook page.
79 people like it. The
name Naioth means “dwellings.” It
was a place where Samuel had established a college for
prophets. There were a
lot of dwellings there - kind of like condominiums -
stacked on top of each other in a kind of maze like
lay out. Plan is that
Samuel could hide David there and they’d probably
never find him. However
- no sooner do they arrive at Naioth - then someone
tells Saul, “David is at Naioth
in Ramah.” So once again
David is on the run - this time away from Samuel. Bottom
line is that crutch number 3 - Samuel - gets removed. Are we together on what’s
happening here? Gradually
David is loosing every thing in his life that he might
have looked to for support. Position. Wife. Now
Samuel. Crutch
number four is The Crutch of A Friend.
Let’s say that together. “The crutch of a friend.” Chapter
20 - verse 1: Then David fled from Naioth in Ramah and
came and said to Jonathan, “What have I done? What is my iniquity? And what is my sin before
your father, that he is seeking my life?” Do
you hear David’s heart - the emotion in his question? “What did I do? Why
is he doing this? Give me
something to go on here.” Saul
is dogging his steps. David’s
living on the edge of death. One
wrong move and he’s toast. Slowly
David is starting to loose emotional stability. He’s starting to feel the
pressure. Wouldn’t
any of us? If we saw our
world slowly coming apart at the seams.
Saw ourselves starting to slide over the edge
and there’s nothing to grab onto before we go over. Maybe you’re there now. Verse
2: He - Jonathan - said to him, “Far from it, you shall not
die. Behold, my father
does nothing either great or small without disclosing
it to me. So why should
my father hide this thing from me?
It is not so!” Daddy
- Saul - tells me everything. He
hasn’t said anything about hunting you down and
killing you. Verse
3: Yet David vowed again, saying “Your
father knows well that I have found favor in your
sight - we’re best buds - and he has said, ‘Do not let Jonathan
know this, or he will be grieved.’
- Telling Jonathan that I’m planning to
kill his best friend David might upset him - But truly as the Lord lives and as your
soul lives, there is hardly a step between me and
death.” The
bottom line is that Saul wants David dead. After some back and forth on
all that - what we have recorded here in chapter 20 -
after some back and forth - David and Jonathan both
come to the realization and what all that means for
them. If Jonathan sticks
with David Jonathan’s life will be in danger too. And in fact - if we were to
read chapter 20 Saul actually tries to kill Jonathan
just because Saul thinks Jonathan might be friends
with David. At
the end of chapter 20 there is the scene with Jonathan
shooting arrows and telling his servant to go farther
and farther away to look for them.
Remember that? Jonathan
signaling David that David’s life is hanging by a
thread - that David needs to run. Look
with me down at verse 42 - where all this ends up -
verse 42 - 1 Samuel 20 - verse 42:
Jonathan said to
David, “Go in safety, inasmuch as we have sworn to
each other in the name of the Lord, saying, ‘The Lord
will be between me and you, and between my descendants
and your descendants forever.’ Then
he rose and departed, while Jonathan went into the
city. Bottom
line: Jonathan goes back
into the city and David goes back on the run. Position - wife - mentor -
friend. Then
- skip down with me to 1 Samuel 21:10.
The last crutch is The Crutch of
Self-Respect. Let’s say
that together, “The crutch of
self-respect.” 1 Samuel 21:10:
The David arose and
fled that day from Saul, and went to Achish king of
Gath. Do
you remember who was from Gath? Goliath. Big dude with armor. Smelled really bad. Lost his head over a small
stone between the eyes. Imagine
this. David flees to
Gath. Home of Goliath. Capitol of the Philistines -
the seat of government - the white house -
headquarters of all those nasty Philistines. David - killer of Goliath -
public enemy number one of the Philistines - David
shows up in Gath looking for the king. Do
you think David was a tad conspicuous?
Osama bin Laden shows up on the door steps of
the White House seeking asylum. How
do you respond to that? The
man who killed their champion shows up deliberately
walking into enemy headquarters. Verse
11: But the servants of Achish said to him - the king - “Is this not David the king of the land? Did they not sing of this
one as they danced, saying, ‘Saul has slain his
thousands, and David his ten thousands’”? Great
question. What is he
doing here? David’s
response? Verse
12: And David took these words to heart - the threat to
his life that’s behind the question - and - David - greatly feared Achish king of Gath. So he disguised his sanity
before them, and acted insanely in their hands, and
scribbled on the doors of the gate, and let his saliva
run down into his beard. Remember
- David’s got chutzpah but he’s not stupid. Its an act.
Of course. But
imagine the scene. David
- anointed king of Israel - champion over the
Philistine champion Goliath - slayer of ten thousands
- drooling at the mouth - spittle running down his
beard - writing senseless graffiti on the city gates -
looking like a madman. Verse
14: Then Achish said to his servants,
“Behold, you see the man behaving as a madman. Why do you bring him to me? Do I lack madmen, that you
have brought this one to act the madman in my
presence? Shall this one
come into my house?” “I’ve got more nuts than a
squirrel prepping for winter. I
don’t need another one. Get
rid of him.” Even
David’s enemies tossed him out. Lost
his position - his wife - his mentor - his friend -
his self-respect. In a
very short period of time David goes from the top of
his game - the pinnacle of success to rock bottom. Ever
been there? Empty? Alone?
Depressed? Angry? Fearful?
There may be centuries between us and David but
there is a ton here that we can relate to. David trying to come to
grips with where he’s landed - crashed. Do
you see the crutches? What
David could be leaning on rather than God? God teaching David at the
heart level: “You don’t need all that.
David, you need to lean on Me.”
When
we’re kids we learn to lean on our parents. In school we lean on our
teachers - maybe even our education - a degree that we
earn. We lean on our job
or our position or our spouse or a friend or some goal
we might set for ourselves. We
lean on the myth of financial security.
We lean on what we do for God or our pastor or
some person we admire. We
lean on drugs or medicine or food or alcohol or having
stuff or sex or some other kind of addiction. Crutches
are what we lean on rather than leaning on God. When we lean on crutches
rather than leaning on God our hearts are crippled. Our faith remains weak. We never gain the strength
we need to live life with God in the abundance of the
way he’s created us to live life. I’d
like to recommend a book to you.
Chuck Swindoll has written a really good book
about David. The title of
which is “David - A Man of Passion & Destiny.” I’d like to read for you a
part of what Chuck Swindoll writes about this part of
David’s life. He calls
this “Three
warnings to all who prefer crutches.” First:
Crutches become substitutes for God.
Deuteronomy 33:27 says, “The eternal God is a dwelling place, and
underneath are the everlasting arms.”
Only God is to be our strength; in the
final analysis, we are to lean only on His everlasting
arms. Isaiah
41:10 says, “Do not fear, for I
am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am
your God. I will
strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will
uphold you with My righteous right hand.”
I
will hold you up, God says. But
as long as you lean on someone else, you can’t lean on
Me. As long as you lean
on some other thing, you won’t lean on Me. They become substitutes for
Me, so that you are not being upheld by My hand. Second: Crutches
keep our focus horizontal.
When you lean on another person or another
thing, your focus is sideways, not vertical. You find yourself constantly
looking to that other person, or relying on that
thing, that nice secure bank account that’s in the
vault. Those things keep
our focus horizontal. Human
crutches
paralyze the walk of faith. Third: Crutches
offer only temporary relief.
I sound like an ad for headache medicine, don’t
I? But that’s actually
what we do. We turn to
some remedy that will soothe us or comfort us or dull
our pain. People take
billions of tablets and capsules each year to find a
tranquilizing experience in order to endure the storms
of life. Now,
I’m not against taking medicine or accepting help when
it’s necessary. I’m
saying when we fall back on those as a regular habit
rather than on the Lord, that’s when the problem
intensifies. God
doesn’t give temporary relief. He
offers a permanent solution. (1) When
God created the world - when He created us - God
created within us a place just for Him.
Our hearts were made for God - to worship God -
to know God - to live relationally with God. God at the center of our
lives brings peace - a settledness - life as it was
created to be lived. God
put Adam and Eve in the Garden - Eden.
Blessed them with the awesomeness of this
world. Outside of that
heart that was created for God - outside - externally
is the goodness of what God created - the awesomeness
of this world - the beauty - the variety - the bounty. What man is to rule over. Gifts from God for man to
enjoy. Sin
distorts all that. The
gifts take the place of God. When
God is forced out by our selfishness - our self-will -
when the gifts take on a greater place in our hearts
than our creator - when God is replaced - when things
take over - we loose our peace - ugly things -
attitudes - behaviors - take over - our relationship
with God is severely - critically - damaged. Our hearts - our lives -
become crippled. What’s
hard is that we’re so immersed in sin that we rarely
realize how sin has led us to lean on so much in our
lives other than leaning God. Just
think about what we think about as “ours” or “mine.” What we covet and cannot do
without. What
we struggle to let go of. Even
if we’re told - if we know that these things are
killing us - it is amazing how necessary these things
- these crutches - seem to be. Are
we somewhat together on this? We
would rather cling to the gift than cling to God. To lean on the crutch rather
than the creator. That’s
where our sin takes us. And
its killing us.
The ancient curse will not go
out painlessly; the tough, old miser within us will
not lie down and die in obedience to our command. He must be torn out of our
heart like a plant from the soil; he must be extracted
in agony and blood like a tooth from the jaw. He must be expelled from our
soul by violence, as Christ expelled the money
changers from the temple. And
we shall need to steel ourselves against his piteous
begging, and to recognize it as springing out of
self-pity, one of the most reprehensible sins of the
human heart. (2) We
need God to remove all that - to remove our crutches
from us. Do
you remember in C.S. Lewis’ Voyage of the Dawn Treader
- how many of you saw the movie?
Or read the book? Do
you remember when Eustace becomes a dragon? As a result of pure
self-centered pig headedness - call it sin - Eustace
becomes a dragon. At
one point Eustace begins pealing off the layers of
scales - of dragon skin - stepping out of his skin -
over and over again. No
matter how many layers of skin Eustace strips off
there’s always another layer underneath. Its
like our efforts at letting go of what we’re leaning
on. Let’s face it. We generally are pretty
attached to our skin. Left
to our own we only go so far. Generally
people hesitate to peel off their own skin. Aslan
- the Lion - who represents Jesus - Aslan tells
Eustace, “You will have to
let me undress you.” As
Eustace tells what happened, Eustace says, “The very first tear he made was so deep
that I thought it had gone right into my heart. And when he began pulling
the skin off, it hurt worse than anything I’ve ever
felt… Well, he peeled the
beastly stuff right off—just as I thought I’d done it
myself the other three times, only it hadn’t hurt—and
there it was lying on the grass.” “Then he caught hold of me—I
didn’t like that much for I was very tender underneath
now that I’d no skin on—and threw me into the water. It smarted like anything but
only for a moment. After
that it became perfectly delicious and as soon as I
started swimming and splashing I found that all the
pain had gone from my arm. And
then I saw why. I’d
turned into a boy again.” (3) Let
me share two truths that we can use in our lives
today. Stay with me on
these. First: There’s nothing wrong with
leaning if ultimately we’re leaning on God. We
all lean on someone. God
gives us each other to lean on. Husbands
and wives need to learn how to lean on each other. We’re created with a need
for community. The body
of Christ is interdependent. We
need everyone doing what each of us is called to do if
we’re going to do what God has called us to do. Its natural to lean on
someone. But
we need to make sure that who we’re leaning on isn’t
taking the place of God. That
we’re not leaning on some crutch that’s crippling our
heart. We need to make
sure that what we’re leaning on ultimately is God. That we’re leaning on the
giver of the gifts - not the gift. Which brings us to our second truth. Being
stripped of all substitutes is hugely painful but also
hugely freeing. Maybe
you’ve been through a time when God’s stripped away a
crutch. Maybe you’re
going through that right now. It
hurts. It isn’t easy. Sometimes that involves a
period of pain and instability. When
God shows us what we’re leaning on rather than leaning
on Him - in the pain of having our skin stripped off -
in the pain of having the truth of our heart exposed -
we have a choice. We can
look around and try to find some other thing or person
to lean on - or we can choose to lean on God and God
alone. Leaning on God heals the crippled heart -
gives us strength for life - frees us to be who God
has created us to be. Tozer
concludes his chapter on “The Blessedness of
Possessing Nothing” with a prayer.
See if his prayer might be a prayer you’d like
to speak to God this morning. Father, I want to know Thee, but
my cowardly heart fears to give up its toys. I cannot part with them
without inward bleeding, and I do not try to hide from
Thee the terror of the parting. I
come trembling, but I do come. Please
root from my heart all those things which I have
cherished so long and which have become a very part of
my living self, so that Thou mayest enter and dwell
there without rival. Then
shalt Thou make the place of Thy feet glorious. Then shall my heart have no
need of the sun to shine in it, for Thyself wilt be
the light of it, and there shall be no night there. In Jesus’ name, Amen. (4) _________________________ 1.
Charles Swindoll, David: A Man of Passion and Destiny
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Every Crutch Removed 2.
A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God - The
Blessedness of Possessing Nothing 3.
C.S. Lewis, The Voyage of the
Dawn Treader - How The Adventure Ended 4.
A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God - The
Blessedness of Possessing Nothing
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